So as some people have noticed, lately I’ve hovered around a bit over at EuphRO2 again. It’s been a year… maybe more… since my last experiences with the server. Upon visiting as a normal player however, I have to say that a lot has changed.
Or perhaps I should say there is a lack of change? The server itself has had only two new NPCs and no updates since my departure. The change I am referring to however is within the community and the administration. As I typed “/who” in the chat console, I was taken aback by the meager amount of approximately 30 players online. Upon inquiring the average amount of players online as of the late, I was shocked to discover that this has been the norm for a while. So what could have happened to the seed which the SAGA team so delicately planted? The answer it seems, lies in the new administration.
A number of players remarked to me that the server administrator never logs into the game and leaves everything to the new head GM. Now, I certainly did a lot of work as head GM in my time but it was usually on my own accord. Apparently, almost no one has access to the scripting folder, which is almost an everyday tool for event GMs and scripters who must rely on NPCs due to a lack of existing commands. To top it off, the administrator banned one of the leading SAGA developers from the IRC channel due to sheer ignorance and arrogance. Of course, now the SAGA team is angry at the server because of its administration, meaning no development help from their side.
As you can imagine, I was practically face-palming at this point because… it just seems like such a waste, don’t you think? I mean, the community, small as it may be, is still a very warm and welcoming body. When I came back to visit EuphRO2, the name “Chii” had already been taken (I was told that there had been many impostors). As I entered Prontera with the name “Chiitah” I was afraid that no one would remember me and it would be sort of rude to burst in saying “HEY GUYS, I’M GM CHII!” For a little bit, it seemed like no one caught on, but when one of the sub GMs logged in he instantaneously made the connection and asked hesitantly, “…are you the Chii? =x”
I was actually honored and touched that people still remembered me after hearing the term “GM Chii.” When the sub GM called for the town to salute me and broadcasted compliments over the server, I was almost at a loss of words… I really hate to brag or draw attention to myself, but the whole ordeal… just gave me a warm feeling inside and reminded me how much I cared about the community.
My other EuphRO2 post which was written shortly after my resignation still gets comments from people who play and even people who have never seen me in their lives. For that, I am just so, so grateful! You don’t know to what degree it makes my day reading a new comment up there… it just makes all the hard work before worthwhile… thanks guys!
While I’ve yet to find someone who likes the server administrator, I’m glad that the community still has that sense of cohesiveness despite its lack of volume. Upon seeing me out and about, I have been helped to help the server come out of its depression. It really is sad how much one incompetent person with power can ruin someone’s hard work and believe me that I would love to help. A few things still eat away at me when contemplating my actions though.
Around the time when I resigned, I made the mistake of letting my responsibilities to the server take precedence over my schoolwork, resulting in undesirable marks. I admit that I did have a problem with prioritizing then, but I have really learned to discipline myself. Still, the thought of falling back into such a pattern bothers me…
Another thing that’s holding me back is the thought of facing a potential problem. If you have read some of Ultimate Sonic’s posts here you would know that he used to head a guild in Ragnarok Online. Upon disbanding, they tried a couple times to rebuild it on a different server and whatnot, attempts which ultimately fizzled out. Now, I have to admit that when I resigned from EuphRO2, it was done with force… I left on a strong note. What I’m afraid of is if I return, it ends up being a half-witted attempt to resurrect something dying and I have to end up leaving on a weak note or one of failure. I mean… is it time to move on or is it not time yet?
Having said that, I must note that I really do care about the community… some of my best friends originated from the time I was there and I still keep in touch with them. While I may not be GM or any position of significance, I still would like to offer the people of EuphRO2 some … hope if you will. The current head GM has expressed interest at upgrading to the Saga Rev. Software, but is held back because it has been largely untested and not given a proper “shakedown.” In the interest of helping the SAGA team improve its software and the EuphRO2 playerbase have a “real” update, I run a test server on my machine for a few people in the community. Read about our experiences here.
So in short, I would like to humbly decline any offers of the position of GM right now, though I am honored at having the opportunity without much hesitation. Perhaps the time is not right, or perhaps the time has passed. Either way, only time will tell.